Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Paper Freak

I am a paper freak. 

I love stationary stores.  My best friend in 4th grade, Lynn Mabey, let me go choose a sheet of every piece of paper from the discard stack that her father had given her.  I notice the color of my students' white papers--yes, they are all different and distinct. (And on a side note, I also drive them crazy when I notice that the font they use in their running header is different than what's in the body text "because the e is more closed up, and the L has a bigger serif" but that's another post.) My dream cupboard would have markers of every kind to color-coordinate with papers of every kind.  I love thick, weightier papers, and the idea of letterpress cards and stationary sends me to the moon. 

I line up birthday cards on the fireplace mantel and leave them there the whole month of my birthday.  So far, only two of my children are still in the will for sending me birthday cards. 

Dave knows better than to forget the card on Valentine's Day.  It's not just the thought (which often is prompted by endless reminders) but it's the ability to slide open the envelope, read the handwriting, and yes, then prop it up on the mantel.

So you can imagine how fun it was to discover that someone has built an entire ad series around needing paper.  Here's a couple of the videos:

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Happy Valentine's Day

 Ignore the advertisements and pleas. Just enjoy the music, the song, the day, no matter what's going on in your life.

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

On a Day Like This

What do you serve for dinner on a day like this?  It's a day where the food needs to be hearty and warm and go down easily in between the tears.  Soup?  Spaghetti made with that good sauce from Trader Joe's?  Chocolate needs to be in the picture, better schedule some brownies for dessert.  A whole pan, so more can be cut up and carried in the car on the way to the funeral.

What do you do on a day like this?  The news came early this morning, my husband weeping as he tells me of his brother-in-law passing away in the morning.  I am strong.  I don't cry.  I get more information later, that my husband's sister was sitting at Bruce's bedside, having been awoken at 4 a.m. by her daughter, each taking two-hour shifts through the last few nights.  They sat there, his breathing diminishing, faltering, until at 6:30 it ceased.  A quiet, in-sleep, in-home death.  One we all would choose if we could.

On a day like this, I finish up the quilt and the angelic quilter lady agrees to a rush job and later, much later, after I sit numbly at the computer, and I become not strong, do I realize how Bruce's death diminishes our family.  This is not a new idea.  I felt it when my other brother-in-law died, when my husband's parents died, when my grandmothers died and it has been expressed by writers since time began.  It just feels new, each death bringing with it memories and associations and words that can not ever now be spoken.

On a day like this, I clean out a cupboard and jar breaks.  I look at it, get the dustpan and broom, wander to the mailbox, ask the neighbors to throw the papers on the porch while we're gone and then the quilter drives up, bringing me my quilt, making me cry again.  Because.  Because on a day like this we need hands to hold us, hearts to share our sorrow.  And something easy to eat for dinner.